2020 is the year I turn 30 and now that my birthday is only a matter of months away, I realise that I’m not afraid of turning thirty as I once was. Rewind back to my 20-year-old self and 30 meant for me having wrinkles, being extra responsible (whatever that means) and pushing myself to have everything by the time that third decade arrives.
In the 10 years since, I would say I have partly got to where I want to be, but with much more still to achieve. Being 30 I realise; doesn’t mean you have to have everything figured out and that’s ok. Here are some thoughts I have surrounding this milestone and some of the things I have learnt.
Older and wiser
The saying goes’ as we grow older and wiser, we begin to realise what we need and what we need to leave behind’. Difficult relationships, testing situations are all valuable life lessons that have in turn made me wiser. Those that have been disrespectful to me or are toxic have no place in my life and have been weeded out over the last 10 years. I’ve learnt my self-worth and will not tolerate anyone who is detrimental to my wellbeing.
Being comfortable on my own
There’s a confidence and feeling of security that comes with being comfortable on your own. I am happy to be with me. That’s something I never used to be able to say but I truly enjoy my own company now. I’m not afraid to admit I sometimes have full blown conversations with myself (out loud!). No, I’m not crazy, give it a go. It helps clear the mind!
Caring less what others think
It’s true what they say, there comes a point in your life when you just start caring less. I am confident enough to walk down the street with no makeup, spots on my face, realising no-one is really bothered what I look like. It’s not something I would have been able to do years ago. Not only that but I also care less about whether I measure up to people’s expectations and maybe most importantly, I care less about the expectations I naively set for myself 10 years prior. Which leads me onto my next point…
I’ve stopped comparing myself against others (sort of)
This is something I have to constantly work on, but I feel a certain level of freedom walking into my thirties. Everyone is winging it in life, no-one knows everything, and we are all just doing our best and that’s all we can do. That’s enough. Life is always about making mistakes but learning from them and moving forward. The media will have you believing all kinds of warped ideas of what the ‘norm’ is but there is no norm. You are exactly where you are supposed to be and it doesn’t matter what age you are, there is always time to change things up.
Learning about what feeds my soul
You wouldn’t have caught me admitting to liking books and writing in my early twenties out of fear of being judged. Now I happily indulge in things that make my heart happy. Going for a walk by myself, visiting a garden centre or snuggling under a blanket with a cup of tea (I’m also partial to an Ovaltine, does that make me a granny?) and a book are some of my favourite things.
The wake up call
As 2020 approached and the year of being 30 arrived, something happened. I had a wakeup call. Something in me that said I need to make a change. I no longer want to be in that mundane job, I am worth more and this will be the year I get more. The start of a decade and a monumental birthday has given me the push to step outside of my comfort zone. I am letting turning 30 be the pivotal point where I don’t just settle. I’ve become lazy and comfortable, but I have the desire to be more financially stable and do something that I am actually passionate about. So, I will! Watch this space 2020 I am coming for you…